Dear blog,

Sorry i haven't been writing. U won't believe it, but despite the exams being over, despite seemingly having done a lot, despite things happening along the way, i still feel like a lot needs to be done, and i still feel some things are unresolved, and i still have things i want to say, to someone.

Which basically make this post-exams border on the verge of holiday blues and yet not really quite there yet.

Which basically means that it feels like shite but there isn't really a valid reason for this darn feeling.

Gonna be away for a while soon.

Talk abt dramatic timing...

We play basketball.
We play basketball in the rain.
We sing wu bai like nobody's business.
We run like crazy in the rain.

We must have really been crazy.

Exams came and went.

The world continues moving on. As it has always been.

1 more day to examz. This is going to be the pre-exam period with the least runs done (1), most junk food eaten, and most tv watched. And perhaps the most distracted too.

Thoughts. Wouldn' t it be nice if we could control what comes into our minds.

Exam period - just think study
TV period - just enjoy
Running period - lalalalalala

But no...the brain just had to think of the exact opposite of what u dun want it to think.

Exam period when i want to study, the brain had to start getting distracted, make me feel all needy, with rampant possible scenarios what may be, even though maybe somewhere deep inside it also noes how it will turn out.

And WATSUP with insomnia??? I want to sleep when i study but i can't sleep when i turn in at 1+ am???

and why the hell am i blogging when i should be studying or sleeping lah.....??

I is quite scared of losing this.

More scared than the examz probably.

When the fear of not doing anything exceeds the fear of doing something, what will happen?

Dear blog,

Sorry I've made u so unpopular. But too bad, this is the way i like it, for now at least.

Life's been not tat good with the exams coming up.

I dun like to have to study when all i can do is think about her.

I think this is not too healthy.

Will let u noe more when i feel like it.

Yours truly,
Lim Peh.

Gonna take 2 wks to cool down.

But i think it's gonna be hard, with stupid tots and distractions running amok.

We'll see what happens after the exams...

I learnt yesterday that the whole med fac comes back to sch to study durin the study break.

That some pple actually enjoy the whole process.

That too much of malay fried chicken wing is pretty disgusting.

That cold windy night in school is worse that cold windy night at home.

That i can't really help messaging her.

Even though i must wait long long for her reply.

That everytime i manage to get to the right lane, there will be construction ahead directing me back to the centre lane.

That vaccine jabs give me pain in the arms after pushups.